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What Every Woman Deserves

Every woman deserves a man who calls her “Baby” and kisses her like he means it. Every woman deserves a man who holds her like he never wants to let go; doesn’t cheat or lie; wipes her tears when she cries; doesn’t make her jealous of other women and makes other women jealous of her—someone [...]

Dangerous Road Trip

I just found out that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is going on a road trip with some of her drinking and drug-using friends. I am kind of concerned about this road trip, since the people she is going with are the same people who let Lauren Elizabeth Kelley stand on a 8″ wide ledge while she [...]

Getting Clean

There was a very honest, brave and amazing post on the Huffington Post website. The post was by Christina Huffington, Arianna Huffington’s daughter, a drug-addicted alcoholic in recovery. Like my beautiful Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, Christina Huffington started using drugs and alcohol as a young woman. She is only a couple of years older than Lauren [...]

Family History and Genetics as Factors for Addiction

The National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence has a post on Family History and Genetics and how they are major factors for addiction. Family History and Genetics Why do some people become addicted to alcohol and drugs and others do not? Whether a person decides to use alcohol or drugs is a choice, influenced [...]

An Open Letter To Lauren Elizabeth Kelley

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley— The world is moving, either you move with it or you get mowed over. This position that you think you’re in is on you and if you’re not careful you’re going to wind up all alone and you’ll have no one to blame but you. You are breaking my heart—because I love [...]

The Man Who Waits

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley— “You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them and five minutes later they’re as dull as a brick? Then there’s other people, when you meet them you think, “Not bad. They’re okay.” And then you get to know them and… and their face just [...]

What 420 Means

There was a good article, originally from the Huffington Post website, on how 420 became synonymous with marijuana stoner culture. Alternet republished the article recently and you can read it here. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, the woman I love, had this as her Facebook profile photo for a while. She changed it after I made a [...]

Waiting

In many ways, the past 22 months reminds me of the time I was waiting because Gee was in a coma about a week before she died. Gee had nearly died from an eroded vein. The vein was one that had been transected during her Whipple operation over a year earlier and when it ruptured, [...]

Not To Blame

I want Lauren Elizabeth Kelley to realize that she is not to blame for her illness. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley needs to understand that it wasn’t her fault that she turned to drugs and alcohol, but a combination of her insecurities, anxieties, self-esteem issues, heritable genetic vulnerabilities and a lack of care and courage by her [...]

A Bittersweet Birthday

Today is my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s 21st birthday. I wish I could be with her to celebrate it, but I can not because of her addictions and the horrific things they have made her say and do. Whether Lauren Elizabeth Kelley realizes it or not, this is one of the many prices that her [...]

Grieving the Death of Our Dream

There was a great post that really hit home for me. It really describes what I have ben going through because of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s addictions. The relevant parts of the post, “Grieving the Death of Our Dream”, is quoted below. Grieving the Death of our Dream by Leslie Ferris Yerger “Nothing dies slower or [...]

The Game of Life

“Life is a game with many rules but no referee. One learns how to play it more by watching it than by consulting any book, including the holy book. Small wonder, then, that so many play dirty, that so few win, that so many lose.” ~ Joseph Brodsky For two decades, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has [...]

The Real Things

“The real things haven’t changed. It is still best to be honest and truthful; to make the most of what we have; to be happy with simple pleasures; and have courage when things go wrong.” ~Laura Ingalls Wilder These wise words were written probably close to a century ago. They are still very true today. [...]

Easter: A Time of Hope and Renewal

It was Easter Sunday in 2000, 13 years ago, when Gee was diagnosed with the Pancreatic Cancer that eventually killed her. We were at Maryview Hospital, down in Portsmouth, VA, where her parents live. A week and a half earlier I had asked her to go down to see her father, who is a physician, [...]

Beautiful People

I think there is a lot of truth in this, because without having known defeat, suffering, struggle, loss and if someone has never found their way back from those depths then they can not truly appreciate what is good and positive in their lives. Without the darkness, light means nothing. Without sorrow, joy and happiness [...]

Breaking The Chains of Addiction

There is another amazing post over on the Crying Out Now blog. The Crying Out Now blog was founded by a woman named Ellie, which is my nickname for the woman I love, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley. Breaking the Chain of Addiction – Lara at One Year Sober January 13, 2013, I was one year sober. [...]

Boston’s Finest

There is a cool new docudrama on TNT about the Boston Police Department called Boston’s Finest. The show follows various members of the Boston Police Department around while they are working as well as giving the viewers a look into the personal lives of the officers involved. While the show may be of interest to [...]

Midst Toil and Tribulation

“If she ever had opened that heart of hers, if she’d found the right man, it wouldn’t have mattered to him how little time they had.” ~Ohlyvya, Midst Toil and Tribulation by David Weber Fortunately, Gee did open that heart of hers, she did find the right man and it didn’t matter how little time [...]

New Year’s Eve 2012—Walking Away

Happy New Year’s Eve to all my friends and family. This is the last day of the year and I, for one, am very happy to see 2012 end. I hope the New Year 2013 brings all of you success, health and happiness. I hope that 2013 will be a better year for many of [...]

Letting Go and Moving On

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley— I have finally realized I was holding on to something that does not exist anymore—that nothing was left of the amazing, beautiful, strong, smart, honest and capable woman I love except the drug-addicted alcoholic shell that has, for eighteen months, lied about us, who we were to each other and how we [...]

Christmas Wishes 2012

I am wishing all of my friends and family a Merry Christmas and hope the New Year brings them all success, health and happiness. I hope that this Christmas season will bring healing to the families in Connecticut who have lost so much this December. I also have some simple wishes and hopes for this [...]

To Santa:

Santa, I’ve tried to be a good boy this year. I have a very simple request for Christmas–can I just have Lauren Elizabeth Kelley please? I know she’s not perfect, but I do love her very much. I think she’s beautiful, smart and funny. I know she’s the one I was told to look for [...]

Why?

I have to wonder why someone would refuse a breathalyzer when involved in a car accident if they’ve only had one glass of wine to drink. In the state of Massachusetts refusing a breathalyzer automatically results in an 180-day suspension of one’s driver’s license. It doesn’t make sense. Anyone over the age of 21 and [...]

Her Character

I found this on a website devoted to helping youth leadership excel and building good character. It sounds like something that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would have liked and participated in when she was younger. The Six Pillars of Character: The CHARACTER COUNTS! approach to character education doesn’t exclude anyone. That’s why we base our programs [...]

Beginning Recovery

Mike Miller writes the following on the Breaking the Cycles blog: As a recovering alcoholic I know how hard it is to stop drinking. I also know that someone who really wants to can begin the “alcohol recovery” process at any time. Right now is always a good time to quit drinking. Right now is [...]

A Dream

In so many ways, the future I talked about with the woman I love is now only a dream. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has clearly fallen to her addictions and there is nothing left of the amazing woman I asked to marry me but the drug-addicted alcoholic that is all that anyone has seen for the [...]

Broken Pottery

My wonderful niece Ellice wrote this as her status update on Facebook earlier today. I think the idea behind it is wonderful and beautiful, but something that not all people are capable of doing. When pottery breaks in japan, they adhere the pieces back together with gold or something other that is precious to signify [...]

Happiness Is…

I read the following post on the web… Stop waiting… We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are. After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal [...]

To Have Integrity

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, at least the woman I love, is a woman of honor, integrity, honesty, compassion, grace and beauty. Right now, her addictions have made Lauren Elizabeth Kelley forget who she truly is. I think that is why Lauren Elizabeth Kelley can not be happy right now. Of course, integrity is something that is [...]

Love and Grief

I have spent much of this past weekend grieving for the beautiful, smart, feisty-spirited, freckled, red-haired Irish woman I love. From everything I have seen for the past seventeen months, there is nothing left of the amazing woman I asked to marry me on June 22, 2011 but the pathetic, weak and cowardly drug-addicted alcoholic [...]