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Her Fears

I’ve been thinking about what Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has done to herself for the past two years that she has been a drug-addicted alcoholic, and I’ve realized that the real problem are her fears. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was verbally and emotionally abused by her father all of her life. Her father John is an alcoholic [...]

Happy Father’s Day—A Daddy’s Letter

Wishing all my friends and Family a very happy Father’s Day. Being a good father is a huge responsibility, and I am very proud of the job most of my friends are doing. This also goes out to the single moms I am friends with that have to do both jobs, often without much support [...]

Why The Rum Is Gone

Sailors often joke about rum. Rum is one of the drinks that is often associated with sailing and boats. This may be because the rum was part of the “Triangle Trade” that the clippers ships were historically used for. However, this post is not a joke and really is not funny in any way. This [...]

Your Inner Whisper

These words were written by Cara Parravani, the late twin of Christa Parravani. I believe these words are beautiful, powerful and true. Dear You, Always listen to your inner whisper. Always wake with hope. Always honor those you love. Always, I will think of you. Yours to the moon and back again, Cara Lauren Elizabeth [...]

Love vs. Infatuation

A friend of mine accused me of being infatuated with Lauren Elizabeth Kelley. I pointed out that infatuations generally are short-lived and do not have the level of commitment that a deep and abiding love like the one I have for Lauren Elizabeth Kelley does. Infatuation would not survive the two years she has been [...]

Risky Behaviors

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has been doing a lot of things that put her at higher risk than most people. Not only is she binge drinking and using drugs heavily, she has also been driving drunk and/or high on a regular basis. This alone bad enough, but her alcohol use and drug use also put her [...]

Signs of Love

Love is not generally found in large, dramatic and heroic gestures, but far more often in the very little mundane details of everyday life that are the everyday signs of love two people share. Sitting on my desk is a broken calculator. The calculator is precious to me because it is a symbol of the [...]

Neo-Nazi?

I wonder if Sue, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s mother knows that Lauren Elizabeth is seeing a neo-Nazi? Someone asked me why I think the person Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is with right now is a neo-Nazi. The answer is pretty simple. It is based on the things that Mark himself has posted. First, he follows AdolfHitler, TheFunnyRacist [...]

Still Drinking and Doing Drugs

Sadly, these are the kind of people the drug-addicted alcoholic that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has become is hanging around with and she’s clearly still drinking and doing drugs. I hope she eventually figures out that these people are not really her friends and that they won’t be there for her when she hits rock bottom [...]

An Open Letter—How To Help An Alcoholic or Drug Addict

This is a great post about an open letter from a drug-addict/alcoholic to his/her family about how to help. I’Ve quoted the open letter below. Don’t allow me to lie to you and accept it for the truth – in so doing, you encourage me to lie. The truth may be painful but get at [...]

The Party

I wonder if Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s parents know about the party she recently hosted. I don’t know whether the party was at their house in town or down at the one on the Cape. By the other tweets, it sounds like it was the one in town and that her parents and sister were down [...]

Addiction and Alcoholism

Watching Leverage, I realized that so many television shows revolve around characters that either have a problem with alcohol or drugs or know/love someone who is in recovery from an addiction to drugs or alcohol. In some cases, the addiction is to gambling, like it is with Booth in the television show Bones. Leverage’s main [...]

What Every Woman Deserves

Every woman deserves a man who calls her “Baby” and kisses her like he means it. Every woman deserves a man who holds her like he never wants to let go; doesn’t cheat or lie; wipes her tears when she cries; doesn’t make her jealous of other women and makes other women jealous of her—someone [...]

Dangerous Road Trip

I just found out that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is going on a road trip with some of her drinking and drug-using friends. I am kind of concerned about this road trip, since the people she is going with are the same people who let Lauren Elizabeth Kelley stand on a 8″ wide ledge while she [...]

Getting Clean

There was a very honest, brave and amazing post on the Huffington Post website. The post was by Christina Huffington, Arianna Huffington’s daughter, a drug-addicted alcoholic in recovery. Like my beautiful Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, Christina Huffington started using drugs and alcohol as a young woman. She is only a couple of years older than Lauren [...]

Family History and Genetics as Factors for Addiction

The National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence has a post on Family History and Genetics and how they are major factors for addiction. Family History and Genetics Why do some people become addicted to alcohol and drugs and others do not? Whether a person decides to use alcohol or drugs is a choice, influenced [...]

An Open Letter To Lauren Elizabeth Kelley

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley— The world is moving, either you move with it or you get mowed over. This position that you think you’re in is on you and if you’re not careful you’re going to wind up all alone and you’ll have no one to blame but you. You are breaking my heart—because I love [...]

The Man Who Waits

Lauren Elizabeth Kelley— “You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them and five minutes later they’re as dull as a brick? Then there’s other people, when you meet them you think, “Not bad. They’re okay.” And then you get to know them and… and their face just [...]

What 420 Means

There was a good article, originally from the Huffington Post website, on how 420 became synonymous with marijuana stoner culture. Alternet republished the article recently and you can read it here. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, the woman I love, had this as her Facebook profile photo for a while. She changed it after I made a [...]

Waiting

In many ways, the past 22 months reminds me of the time I was waiting because Gee was in a coma about a week before she died. Gee had nearly died from an eroded vein. The vein was one that had been transected during her Whipple operation over a year earlier and when it ruptured, [...]

Not To Blame

I want Lauren Elizabeth Kelley to realize that she is not to blame for her illness. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley needs to understand that it wasn’t her fault that she turned to drugs and alcohol, but a combination of her insecurities, anxieties, self-esteem issues, heritable genetic vulnerabilities and a lack of care and courage by her [...]

A Bittersweet Birthday

Today is my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s 21st birthday. I wish I could be with her to celebrate it, but I can not because of her addictions and the horrific things they have made her say and do. Whether Lauren Elizabeth Kelley realizes it or not, this is one of the many prices that her [...]

Grieving the Death of Our Dream

There was a great post that really hit home for me. It really describes what I have ben going through because of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s addictions. The relevant parts of the post, “Grieving the Death of Our Dream”, is quoted below. Grieving the Death of our Dream by Leslie Ferris Yerger “Nothing dies slower or [...]

The Game of Life

“Life is a game with many rules but no referee. One learns how to play it more by watching it than by consulting any book, including the holy book. Small wonder, then, that so many play dirty, that so few win, that so many lose.” ~ Joseph Brodsky For two decades, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has [...]

The Real Things

“The real things haven’t changed. It is still best to be honest and truthful; to make the most of what we have; to be happy with simple pleasures; and have courage when things go wrong.” ~Laura Ingalls Wilder These wise words were written probably close to a century ago. They are still very true today. [...]

Easter: A Time of Hope and Renewal

It was Easter Sunday in 2000, 13 years ago, when Gee was diagnosed with the Pancreatic Cancer that eventually killed her. We were at Maryview Hospital, down in Portsmouth, VA, where her parents live. A week and a half earlier I had asked her to go down to see her father, who is a physician, [...]

Beautiful People

I think there is a lot of truth in this, because without having known defeat, suffering, struggle, loss and if someone has never found their way back from those depths then they can not truly appreciate what is good and positive in their lives. Without the darkness, light means nothing. Without sorrow, joy and happiness [...]

Marina and Ulay

Recently, there was a video circulating about performance artist Marina Abramovic and a performance she had done at the MOMA back in 2010. Marina and Ulay had met in the 1970s and loved each other intensely—becoming partners in life and performing art together out of the van they lived in. After a little more than [...]

Breaking The Chains of Addiction

There is another amazing post over on the Crying Out Now blog. The Crying Out Now blog was founded by a woman named Ellie, which is my nickname for the woman I love, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley. Breaking the Chain of Addiction – Lara at One Year Sober January 13, 2013, I was one year sober. [...]

Boston’s Finest

There is a cool new docudrama on TNT about the Boston Police Department called Boston’s Finest. The show follows various members of the Boston Police Department around while they are working as well as giving the viewers a look into the personal lives of the officers involved. While the show may be of interest to [...]