I have to wonder why someone would refuse a breathalyzer when involved in a car accident if they’ve only had one glass of wine to drink. In the state of Massachusetts refusing a breathalyzer automatically results in an 180-day suspension of one’s driver’s license. It doesn’t make sense.
Anyone over the age of 21 and over 90 lbs. isn’t going to be legally drunk after a single glass of wine. It is very unlikely that the person had the glass of wine just before they left their company’s Christmas party to drive home—so some of the alcohol should have been metabolized by the liver.
So, either the person is lying about how much wine they had to drink and refused the breathalyzer because they knew they were likely over the limit, or they’re just really stupid.
But, from my experience with alcoholics, they’re very good at lying to themselves and everyone else. They’re also pretty stupid about anything that has to do with their addiction.
Can anyone think of a valid reason to refuse a breathalyzer if they’ve really only had a single glass of wine? I certainly can’t.
Of course, the story is quite different if you are under the age of 21, like my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley. The BAC level for someone under the age of 21 is only .02, rather than .08. It is likely that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would be considered legally drunk after a single drink. Given her drinking and drug use over the past eighteen months, it is pretty likely that she has been driving high, drunk or both, quite regularly for the past eighteen months.
One person I know that was recently arrested for DUI is now worried about losing her job, having her children find out that she was driving drunk, and so much more. This is what Lauren Elizabeth Kelley can look forward to if she continues to let her addictions run her life. This is why I am walking away from the drug-addicted alcoholic that is all that remains of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley.
Unless Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, the woman that loves me, is willing to fight her addictions, I can not stay. I am not strong enough to see what her addictions have done to her and how they have destroyed almost everything I love about her. Her addictions have turned the honest, strong, brave, compassionate, gracious, generous, smart and beautiful woman I love into a dishonest, weak, cowardly, selfish, stupid and ugly drug-addicted alcoholic that cares about nothing but her next drink and blunt.
Her addictions have turned the moral, good, devout Catholic woman that loves me into something that would prostitute itself for the drugs and alcohol her addictions require for months and see nothing wrong with doing that. That is why I am walking away at the beginning of the New Year. It isn’t because I don’t love Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, but because I love her enough to walk away and protect myself from what her addictions are doing to me.
God Bless you Lauren Elizabeth.
May God watch over you and protect you from all harm—even that you cause yourself.
I hope God gives you the strength to fight your addictions and the wisdom to see the truth about what the alcohol and drugs are doing to you.
I pray that God grants you the serenity and peace you will need to love yourself once again and to forgive yourself for the things your addictions have made you do.
I ask that God helps you find your way back to being the amazing, beautiful, intelligent, feisty, stubborn, strong, and devout woman He wants you to be.
Finally, may He grant you the ability to see yourself as I do and let you remember who we are to each other; let you remember the years of friendship, love and devotion we once shared; and give you the strength to make amends so we can start the future together we talked about last June.
All this in Jesus’s name I pray.