One of the reasons I have decided that I need to move on is that I really don’t think there is anything left of the amazing woman I love besides the drug-addicted alcoholic. If all that is left is the dishonest, weak, stupid, drug-addicted alcoholic that has been occupying Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s body for the past eighteen months, then it is time to move on.
I know I need to move on for many reasons. I know that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, the amazing woman that I love and want to marry would expect me to move on if she had died. I know that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would want me to move on if all that is left of her is the lying, pathetic, uncaring, stupid drug-addicted alcoholic. I know Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would want me to move on because she loves me, much as Gee does, and would want me to be happy and loved in return—something the drug-addled, drunken wretch can just not do.
One reason I think there is nothing more than the drug addicted alcoholic left is because Lauren Elizabeth Kelley gets tweets like these on a regular basis.
A few recent tweets that were directed to Lauren Elizabeth Kelley clearly show her problems with marijuana.
Lauren and her friends used to have a weekly Friday night Sushi and blunts session, which has now apparently become Friday night brownies, likely heavily laced with marijuana. When Lauren was involved with Jarrod, the man she prostituted herself to for much of the summer and fall of 2011 to get the drugs and alcohol that her addictions required, Lauren was often baking marijuana or hash brownies according to the social media posts by Jarrod, his “wolfpack” and Lauren herself. From my experience, the effects of marijuana or hash-laced brownies are often far stronger and longer lasting than smoking marijuana. Doing them on a weekly basis is generally not the providence of recreational users of marijuana but more seriously addicted stoners.
If Lauren Elizabeth Kelley—the beautiful, smart, strong, capable and lovable woman that loves me—doesn’t think she has a problem with drugs and alcohol after all that has happened in the last eighteen months, then she is truly gone. I know the woman I spoke to about getting married, raising a family with and sharing my life with is too honest to deny the truth of what has happened over the last year and a half, since she fell to her addictions at the end of May 2011.
In case Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is still reading this blog, I want her to see what I have seen over the past eighteen months, since she started drinking and doing drugs heavily.
First, there are the changes in Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s behavior.
Does Lauren Elizabeth Kelley really think it is normal to have to hide what she is doing from her own family? By her own admission in her social media posts, Lauren was sneaking out at night after her parents would go to bed to go drinking and doing drugs. Lauren would leave around 2200 or so and sneak back into the house after four or five hours of drinking, doing drugs and having risky sex by her own admission.
This is why her family knew nothing about her drug and alcohol problems when I first mentioned them in July 2011, a little over a month after I asked Lauren Elizabeth Kelley to marry me and a month after Lauren Elizabeth Kelley pushed me away after I confronted her about her drinking—not knowing she was a drug addicted alcoholic at the time.
Lauren also started using heavy perfumed scents in her then new-to-her car and her bedroom. Considering how meticulous the incredible woman I love is, there was no need to use such scents unless she was trying to cover up the smell of the marijuana or alcohol she was using in secret.
Then, there is the fact that Lauren and almost a dozen of her friends bought very high-quality fake IDs from China. They each bought two fake IDs—one from Maryland and one from Rhode Island. They were shipped to Lauren, hidden in a pair of shoes that didn’t fit her. When I spoke to Lauren’s mother about it, she even remembered the package and was curious why Lauren wasn’t angry the shoes didn’t fit properly. I only know about the fake IDs that Lauren, Anna McFadden, Michelle Surette and several others bought is because Lauren showed them to me on June 28, 2011 to ask me what I thought of them. From what I understand, these were not inexpensive—some $300 for the pair of fake IDs that each woman bought.
On the same day Lauren showed me the fake IDs, she asked me to buy her two bottles of Barcardi 151. Lauren had wanted me to just buy the alcohol and give it to her. I refused to do it. I stand by my reasons, which were:
- It was illegal to do. Lauren wasn’t old enough to buy alcohol herself and knew that buying it with a fake ID was both illegal and risky.
- It was a betrayal of the trust her parents had placed in me as their friend when they asked me to watch out for, guide, protect and mentor their two oldest children.
- It would have been irresponsible of me as Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s friend.
- I didn’t think it was good for her. I guess, subconsciously, I suspected Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was an alcoholic, but didn’t know it consciously at the time.
A few hours later, when Lauren had returned to her house, she asked me about buying her the alcohol again and basically offered herself to me as an incentive. Again, I refused her. Lauren was pretty angry about this and probably couldn’t understand how I could refuse her—after all she knew I loved her as I had asked her to marry me almost a week earlier and we spent most of that week talking about everything having to do with starting a life together, getting married and having children.
Lauren also knew I desired her physically, as we had been pretty physically intimate during the previous few days. So, I can understand how upset and confused Lauren must have been that someone who loved her and wanted her wouldn’t take advantage of her and do her the favor she was asking. But, I wouldn’t take advantage of Lauren because I love her and respect her far to much too let her debase herself in such a manner. Also, my previous reasons for refusing were still true.
I’d point out that Lauren had been using the fact that she is a beautiful and sexually desirable young woman to get young men, like Jarrod and others, to provide her with the alcohol and drugs her addictions required, as she clearly writes about in some of her social media posts as I discovered later in the summer. I think this is one reason she was so angry and confused by my refusal to buy her alcohol.
I guess Lauren Elizabeth Kelley doesn’t yet understand that just because you love someone doesn’t mean that you do everything they ask you to blindly—without regard to the consequences and whether doing what they ask is good for the person you love or not. That if you love, cherish and treasure a person as much as I do Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, you would never take advantage of her like Jarrod did.
Lauren also pushed away anyone that did not support or enable her addictions. In many ways, I was the last person she pushed away, and I think it is because I was the person she loved and cared most about and that she couldn’t push me away until I had confronted her about her drinking on June 29, 2011.
The Confrontation:
On the morning of June 29, I had sent Lauren Elizabeth Kelley a text message telling her I was going to drop some things off for the car safety kit I had put together for her. The text message ended with virtual hugs and kisses from me to LEK. This was around 1100 or so.
The kit was still missing a few critical fuses and such, and I wanted her to have the safety kit because she had just bought her first car. The kit contained a flashlight, a first-aid kit, jumper cables, a blanket, spare fuses, and other such emergency items that are nice to have with an older, possibly less reliable car like her 1998 Stratus. One thing in the kit that shows how much I treasure and love Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, at least before she fell to her addictions is the tire pressure gauge I gave her—it originally belonged to my identical twin brother David, and I had owned it for the nearly 25 years since he was killed by a drunk driver.
Later that day, about 1330 or so, Lauren posted on Facebook that she was:
“Headed down to the Cape to go chillin’ and by chillin’ I mean drinking”
I replied to her via PM on Facebook and by text message my concerns about her drinking, her possibly driving drunk, and her using her fake IDs and what they could end up costing the woman I love. Lauren got angry because I was concerned and had confronted her about her drinking. Lauren went from accepting virtual hugs and kisses from me earlier that morning to telling me to “Fuck off and lose her number” in less than four hours without us ever having spoken or seeing each other. She stopped speaking to me that afternoon, and the only thing of significance that happened was my confronting the woman I love about her drinking—showing concern and worry about the woman I love and telling her I was worried.
We had been talking about having children, getting married and starting a life together the day before. Less than 12 hours earlier, she had asked to see the claddagh ring I had bought for her and I believe she meant to accept it and my proposal to her when I promised to bring it in a couple of days, when I was going to see her next.
For a couple of weeks, I had no idea what had caused the rift between us. During the month of July I realized that Lauren had become a drug-addicted alcoholic unbeknowst to me or her family. I also realized that her violent and unexpected reaction to my concerns about her drinking is pretty typical for how any addict acts when confronted by the person they love most.
The Lies
It was after this confrontation that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley stopped speaking to me. Lauren also started telling her family lies to try and separate me from her family. I have known her parents since before they were married and had been considered family by her parents for 30 years by the time I confronted Lauren about her drinking. I considered Lauren and her two siblings part of my family for all of their lives.
The lies Lauren Elizabeth Kelley told were necessary because I was probably the person her parents trusted most out of all their friends and relatives. I base this on the fact that for many years, I have acted as the liaison between Lauren and Johnny Jr. and their parents John and Sue. John and Sue checked out of their two older children’s lives years ago and I know because that was when I was asked to become their friend and to watch over them, protect them, and mentor them.
This is why, when Lauren Elizabeth Kelley chose to become a vegetarian when she was 12 or so, I was the person asked to advise her on her nutrition to make sure she wouldn’t become malnourished as is often the case with people converting to a vegetarian diet.
This is why I was asked to talk to Lauren Elizabeth Kelley about her decision to become a vegan a few years later in the hopes I could discourage the growing teen from a risky dietary change. I convinced Lauren Elizabeth Kelley to stop her plans to become a vegan by arguing not about nutrition, which would have been a losing cause with the stubborn and feisty young woman she was rapidly becoming, but by using the argument that vegans couldn’t own nice shoes or Coach purses since they didn’t use animal products like leather. The highly-fashion conscious 15-year-old decided that becoming a vegan was crazy because there was no way she was giving up her fashionable attire to do it.
This is why I was asked to teach both Johnny Jr. and Lauren Elizabeth Kelley how to drive when they were old enough. I was the person Sue trusted to speak to Johnny Jr. about his problems with drugs, alcohol and chronic depression when he flunked out of Bentley College three-and-a-half years ago.
This is why John and Sue came to me for advice in April of 2011 when Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was being stalked by a Randolph police officer she had met through her work at the cinema. This is when I advised Lauren Elizabeth Kelley about harassment orders, using good anti-stalker precautions on social media, and other such things.
I doubt that Sue and John would have trusted me with so much of their children’s lives if they didn’t know me and trust me implicitly from our 30 years of friendship, love and trust. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s parents know the kind of man I am, since they have seen me grow up and watch how I dealt with the death of my twin brother and the loss of Gee to her cancer. John actually introduced me to Su Yeon Kim, the woman I was engaged to before Gee and who saved my life after my twin brother was killed 25 years ago. John and Sue were at my wedding to Gee and Gee’s funeral. They both know how seriously I take my commitments to the women I love through their first-hand experience with seeing me over the years.
In fact, when I told Sue I wanted to marry Lauren, she wasn’t surprised and didn’t change how she treated me in any way, even after Lauren stopped speaking to me and lying about me initially. I think the only reason Sue has stopped speaking to me and being friends with me is her fear of her husband John, who is an emotionally abusive and violent bully. When I tried to get the documentation of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s illness to Sue, he overheard Jan and Sue talking about it and stormed into the room and violently ripped the package I had given Jan to pass to Sue out of their hands and destroyed it. I think John threatened Sue if she talked to me after that, since she never opened or read the e-mailed copies of the documentation I had sent her subsequently. It is telling that Sue’s last text message to me was:
Dan, I know you will always be there for us.
The preposterous lies that Lauren told are clearly belied by the history I have with her family and by the photos of us together. I won’t repeat them here because Lauren and her father have defamed me enough without my repeating the lies they have both been telling since I confronted her about her drinking so long ago.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s own words
Then there are Lauren’s own social media posts. After Lauren pushed me away, I checked on her social media posts—Facebook, Twitter, Formspring, etc., to try and find out what had happened and why she was acting so differently from the beautiful woman I love. When her mother asked me for the evidence as to why I believed the amazing woman I love was a drug-addicted alcoholic, I put together an analysis of what Lauren has since admitted were social media posts that were true and written only by her under oath.
While most of these posts start on May 29, 2011, when I believe that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley started drinking and doing drugs heavily, there was a post from April 15, 2011 that points to some underlying self-esteem or anxiety-related issue as the likely root cause of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s drug and alcohol problems. I know she had been drinking and probably doing drugs when she was younger, but as far as I know did not have the serious problems with them that she developed in late May 2011, probably as a result of her breakup with Ian after she caught Ian cheating on her.
I believe that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, like her elder brother Johnny Jr., is using alcohol and drugs to self-medicate. Johnny Jr.’s root cause was his chronic depression, which has since been treated, resulting in his drug and alcohol problems coming under control. However, Johnny Jr. believes he is not a drug-addict or alcoholic, even though it is very likely that if he ever lets his depression go unchecked again, he will start using drugs—cocaine and marijuana in his case—and drinking heavily again.
Here are Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s own posts and my interpretation of them, based on knowing, loving and caring about Lauren Elizabeth Kelley for all of her life, as assembled for Lauren’s mother Sue last summer. I went back to the beginning of Lauren’s social media account in some cases to see if there were clear changes in her behavior and what she was posting, and while the posts I will relate here continue up to early August 2011, her subsequent posts are just as bad, if not worse.
Again, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has admitted that the words that she posted were true and posted only by her under oath. The frequency of the posts increases as the summer progresses. While these are not all of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s social media posts, they are the ones that pretty clearly reference her addictions to marijuana and alcohol as well as other risky behavior that is indicative of being an addict, such as promiscuous and unsafe sex and driving dangerously.
April 15- ever feel like you;ll never e a whole person again?
This sounds like a person who isn’t very comfortable with herself and has the self-esteem/anxiety issues that I think are the underlying cause of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s addictions. I’d point out that the years of emotional abuse at her father John’s hands over her lifetime, much of which I had the unfortunate experience of seeing firsthand, is probably the basis for her low-self-esteem and anxiety issues. I think that Ian’s betrayal of her in January of 2011 triggered their recurrence, because Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was a pretty confident, self-assured young woman previously, as seen in the photos of her in 2008 and 2010.
May 29- Birthday shoutout to @Caroline91, we chilin this week girl have fun down the cape!
This is probably a reference to going drinking down on Cape Cod, as Lauren generally refers to drinking as “chilling”. In fact, the confrontation between myself and Lauren was caused by a Facebook post of Lauren’s where she clearly stated that she was planning on going down to her family’s house on Cape Cod to go drinking. Her words were something to the effect of:
“Headed down to the Cape to go chillin’ and by chillin’ I mean drinking”
May 30- Oh sangria, I love you.
Pretty self-explanatory, she was drinking sangria
May 31- home from work, sippin smokin sleeping.
Also pretty self-explanatory, and she probably wasn’t sipping water or smoking cigarettes.
June 7- My new aps include “liquor run mobile” and “mixology drink recipes”
“Liquor run mobile” is an android phone app that gives you the location of the nearest liquor store, which is not something that a 19-year old girl should need to know. Mixology drink recipes is a bartending guide, also not something she needs to have on her phone. Her obsession with alcohol and if the local package store is open becomes apparent in her later posts.
June 15- “@y0ung_h0ttness: Should I drink back to back nights” the obvious answer is hell yea of course.
She is telling her friend Chris that they should drink back to back nights.
June 18- I’m a mess, Not even a hot mess either, just a mess.
Again, something that people with self-esteem issues often feel and say and clarified by the tweets from the next day.
June 19- soo much to drink last night! Tequila makes me invinceible I feel amazing today
It is pretty clear that she felt a mess when drinking the tequila more likely than not… Addicts tend to remember the good parts of their addictive experiences and forget the hard/bad parts.
June 19- Soo bored at work, is the liq store open today?
June 19- To answer my q earlier, yes the packies openWhat is a 19-year-old girl doing wondering about package stores being open. A strong preoccupation with alcohol and its availability is fairly typical alcoholic behavior.
June 19- You know how I put it down, put it down anytime I come around
Probably a reference to her drinking habit
June 19- Cherry Svedka Cokes, with the boys heading into the bean
Seems fairly obvious that she’s drinking vodka spiked cherry coke and then heading into Boston with the boys who supplied Lauren with the alcohol. It is also pretty clear that Lauren’s now drinking in public without any real concern about getting caught.
June 23- Heading to scituate to celebrate nicky’s bday with my boys
Probably the same boys that she’s been drinking with up in Scituate.
June 24- Drunk Poool shot 4 shot and I won #justsayin
Lauren is bragging about winning at playing pool for drinks is my guess.
June 24- Ahh #drunktweet
Why would Lauren Elizabeth Kelley say this unless she was DRUNK?
June 24- Racksonrackonracks of rolling rock
Some one is supplying her with access to a lot of beer—ROLLING ROCK
June 29- Felony speeds on york st #oldhaunts #newwhip
Probably saying she was driving way too fast, more evidence of reckless behavior, which is typical of addicts. This was likely during or just after when I confronted Lauren Elizabeth Kelley about her drinking.
June 30- And on another note mikes hard might be the only thing that’s better in a can
Obviously a reference to Mike’s Hard Lemonade. How does Lauren Elizabeth Kelley know how it tastes better in a can than a bottle?
July 1- #alcoholicstatus
Why would someone who isn’t an alcoholic post this?
July 2- Phones alive again yay, about to try something hope I don’t get pinched…
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is obviously talking about doing something illegal and hoping not to get “pinched” or arrested. I believe this is the first time she used her fake Ids. She has TWO of them, one from Maryland and one from Rhode Island. This is clarified in her next post.
July 2- successful packie wooooo I can’t wait for fireworks
Obviously, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley used her fake ID to buy alcohol and wasn’t caught.
July 2- watermelon alcohol marinade
July 2- How cleverI believe this is a reference to spiking a watermelon with alcohol. Somehow, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley seems to think this is a clever and good idea.
July 3- Red, White and Booze
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley retweets a post about alcohol… obvious what is on her mind.
July 7- just chilling around the cape house, beach was phenom
Likely Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was drinking at the Cape house, as chilling is her code for drinking, confirmed in her next tweet during the same day.
July 7- Mango parrot bay + mango pineapple mcd’s slushie
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is likely spiking a McDonald’s Mango Pineapple Slushie with Parrot Bay Mango flavored rum so that she can drink openly and in public with little chance of being detected.. This is a pretty common alcoholic trick to reduce the chances of them being seen drinking or getting caught drinking in public.
July 10- “@omgiitsnicole: whoa. Blasted.” Hollaaa
This is Lauren Elizabeth Kelley cheering on her friend Nicole, who is tweeting about being blasted. Nicole, Chelsey, Jarrod and several others are all co-workers of Lauren’s from her cinema job, who are mostly all older than Lauren Elizabeth Kelley and the people she started drinking and doing drugs with. Jarrod and Chelsey are seven years older than Lauren Elizabeth Kelley and highschool classmates, and I believe that Chelsey is the person who “pimped” Lauren Elizabeth Kelley out to Jarrod last year.
July 10- aww congrats to dina so nice to meet errbody/chill out for the bbq. Now showering with a #budlightlime and getting readyyy
I think it is pretty clear that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was drinking before the bbq, budlight lime in particular. I also have to ask who drinks in the shower? That isn’t normal behavior as far as I can tell for anyone who isn’t an alcoholic.
July 10- Haha just got confronted abt a drinking prob? #whitgirlproblems
Someone just confronted Lauren, a 19-year-old, about having a drinking problem. Why do you think someone thinks Lauren has a drinking problem??? If it is so obvious to someone who probably doesn’t know Lauren Elizabeth Kelley as well as I do, how is it possible that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley and her family don’t see the problem. Of course, her father and brother are both alcoholics in denial, so they can’t see Lauren’s problems with alcohol because they refuse to admit their own problems even exist.
July 13- @CollegeTownLife You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take. So stop being a pussy and let’s get drunk #CTL”
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley re-posting @CollegeTownLife’S post about getting drunk.
July 14- stumbling, sipping mango parrot bay mmm
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is drinking enough Parrot Bay Mango-flavored run to have coordination problems in her own words…
July 17-Patron and bacardi for the frist tiiime
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is drinking harder, stronger alcohol. My guess is that someone is probably supplying it. She hasn’t said anything about doing packie runs in a while. The other possibility is that doing a packie store run, using her fake Ids has become so common place that she no longer comments about it.
July 17- Love hp ! Outta work time to chill
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is probably going out with friends from work to go drinking. This was a pretty typical pattern of behavior for her last summer.
July 19- I need a tall glass a something smooth
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley retweets BostonsBoy’s tweet about needing a drink.
July 20- RT if you’ve gotten laid after one of my shows
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley retweets BostonsBoy’s tweet indicating that she has had sex after his shows. Remember that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley said that her social media posts were her own words and true…
July 23- Not what I expected… beerworks being swooned lol
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is likely letting the person providing the beer seduce her. Sexual promiscuity is typical of addictive behavior, especially if the subject is being provided drugs or alcohol by the person. The park shown in the geotag on this post is one that she also goes to quite often to drink/do drugs. The park is also mentioned in an article as a place known for under-age drinking, drug use, and a place where drugs are readily available. I provided a copy of the article to Lauren’s mother in the documentation. The post is from almost midnight, well after the park is supposed to be closed to the public.
July 23- Omw to scituate to see the biddies
It is likely that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was drinking and now is likely driving drunk. In Massachusetts, the BAC level for a person under 21 is only .02, and if she had more than one beer, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would be legally driving drunk. I’d point out that many of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s social media posts indicate that she had to have been driving either high and/or drunk for much of the last seventeen months, including January 2012, when it is likely the car crash Lauren Elizabeth Kelley was in was due to her being high and/or drunk when it occurred.
July 24- The pool was so effing nice, now off to find somewhere to toke under the stars lololol
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is going to smoke marijuana after swimming, this was about midnight I’d add. I believe the place shown in this post is also a common place from her tweets and the home of one of her new friends, as Scituate is commonly mentioned in her tweets.
July 28- Liq store while I wait for this oil change.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is buying alcohol and risking a felony conviction while getting the oil changed in her car. Apparently buying alcohol has become pretty common place for Lauren Elizabeth Kelley as she later admitted under oath.
July 29- Probably need to think about who your talking to… bitches get drunk and embarress themselves
From what I remember, this tweet was about midnight, and it is likely she went out to drink the alcohol she bought the day before and is so drunk she saying she embarrassed her self. The map indicates a small park near Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s family home that she commonly goes to drink. The park in question is known as a place for under-aged drinking, public sex, public drug-use and drug sales. I included an article about the park in the package to Lauren’s mother Sue.
July 29 Strawberry margaritas and holy hash balls
The geotag location for this was in Mission Hill area of Boston around 2030 at night. I have to ask what is Lauren doing in one of the worst parts of Boston drinking and doing drugs at night. Someone is also supplying Lauren with stronger drugs, since hash is far more potent than marijuana. Please note that Lauren deleted this tweet and I believe that she does know that this is wrong and is embarrassed about it. I also believe her posting all of these tweets are a cry for help.
July 30- Sex drive thats push to start
This tweet was about 0930 in the morning and indicates that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley spent THE ENTIRE NIGHT in the Mission Hill area of Boston, after doing drugs and drinking. It also likely indicates that she had sex, probably with the person that supplied her the alcohol or drugs. This is very risky behavior, since Mission Hill is a very dangerous area of Boston, and known for drug, gang and criminal activity. If Lauren Elizabeth Kelley continues this, it is likely she will get hooked on harder drugs, since the persons she’s associating with appear to be giving her harder drugs, and has a very good chance of her getting raped, pregnant or shot. This was the reason I wanted to expedite meeting with Lauren’s parents back in August of 2011.
July 30- Scorpion Bowl at the spottt
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley bought a scorpion bowl drink at the Ocean City chinese restaurant. I’d point out that a Scorpion bowl typically has about SIX SHOTS or NINE OUNCES of alcohol in it, and if Lauren Elizabeth Kelley drank one by herself, she’d have to stay at the restaurant for over 8 hours to get the alcohol out of her system. This means she WAS DRIVING DRUNK, probably even at the .08 adult BAC level.
August 3- Don’t wanna say goodnight but really must be passing out
It is pretty clear she was drinking, as she was at the local reservoir drinking spot near her family’s home. This tweet was about 0500 or so IIRC, and if she was thinking of passing out, she must have been fairly drunk…means she was driving home drunk. This park, DW Field, is a well known spot for drug use and casual sex. The park was recently the focus of a crackdown on public casual sex as indicated in an article I’ve included. According to a local police officer that is an acquaintance of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s family, this is a bad place to be at that hour and is illegal since the park closes at sunset.
August 4- Goooood morning
loungin around with my love haa don’t wanna get outta bed just chattin so comfy
Sounds like Lauren Elizabeth Kelley had someone stay over with her, which is something her parents would have never allowed, so she is there with just Jarrod. I believe she was at the Cape Cod house when she tweeted this, based on the other posts which refer to Long Pond, which is across the street from her famiily’s Cape house. The fact that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, formerly a moral, responsible, devout Catholic, would be sleeping with someone that is a relative stranger to her shows how far she has fallen to her addictions.
I’d point out that this is a Thursday, and her parents were in the habit of going down to the Cape house with Bridget every Friday about mid-day and coming back on Monday mornings that summer.
August 4- Chillin with my good friend from ny! Stays right by on the bass riv, small world
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is probably drinking with her friend from NY.
August 7- the modern mans Hustle i dig it i shovel, feed me your troubles and need me to cuddle (0128)
August 7- iii wanna go oo all the way, takin out my freak tonightt(0145)
August 7- Tweet from JROD_FB85—LK is a lifesaver… Thanksa million (0314)
August 7- Tweet from JROD_FB85—I do it (0319)
August 7- Shoutout to @jrod_fb85 for making muh dayLauren Elizabeth Kelley is basically announcing publicly that she’s going to be having sex with someone. Apparently, the person she had sex with is Jarrod, from his replies and the time stamps on them. It turns out that Jarrod is a drug dealer and was likely supplying Lauren Elizabeth Kelley with alcohol and marijuana in trade for sex with her—that Lauren was basically prostituting herself to Jarrod in order to get the drugs and alcohol her addictions require. As soon as Jarrod tired of using Lauren Elizabeth Kelley as a sex toy, he threw her away like yesterday’s trash.
This likely happened at Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s family house, since her parents and her sister Bridget were likely down at the Cape house until Monday, and all this took place on Sunday.
August 8- Working for someone today and forgot I was on tonight waah
I find it very unsettling that someone as organized and focused on her work as Lauren is would FORGET that she had a work shift scheduled. Especially, since she comments on work a couple of tweets later. This in not that uncommon for alcoholics. If she is having problems compartmentalizing and remembering her work schedule, that is probably a really bad sign.
August 8- Phantom charges on my debit
The unexplained or “mystery” charges on her debit card could easily be ones that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley made herself while she was high or drunk and just doesn’t remember making them—this is fairly common for alcoholics.. They could also be charges that one of her “friends” made while she was too drunk or high to realize that they had “borrowed” her debit card. This is very worrying, since the debit card goes to the bank account which Lauren Elizabeth Kelley uses for the money for her education-related expenses.
These are Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s own words—words she has admitted were written by her and the truth. They were publicly posted for most of the last eighteen months. They were among the two-years of posts and social media data sold by a social media company earlier this year.
Meeting Lauren’s Parents
I was supposed to meet with Lauren’s parents, but her father John, an alcoholic in denial himself, cancelled the meeting and refused to speak with me. When I tried to get the documentation package to Lauren’s mother Sue, John destroyed it as I described earlier. The meeting with Sue and John never happened.
I did confront Lauren’s father John about his own drinking, and the cowardly bully probably would have hit me if I had been anyone else. But John has seen what happens to people who attack me and he is too much of a coward to risk the beating he would have received at the hands of a much smaller person, so he held back and just foamed at the mouth. In some ways, I wish he had hit me—he would have gotten the beating he deserves for the years of emotional abuse he has put his wife and children through.
John later threw his beautiful daughter Lauren Elizabeth Kelley under a bus and used her to protect himself from being confronted again by me. I believe he coerced Lauren Elizabeth Kelley into perjuring herself by threatening to withhold her tuition from her. I also believe he paid Lauren Elizabeth Kelley off by providing her with more money than he had originally promised her because Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has been going to school despite not having gotten the small, $6000-8000, student loans that would make up the difference between her scholarship and the money put aside by her parents for her college education. In September 2011, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley had posted a plaintive cry asking if anyone had $6000 she could have because she was denied the student loan she had applied for, yet she was able to attend school with out it a few days later.
What has happened since then…
All that I had warned Sue about last summer, with respect to what Lauren would do and what would happen last year has basically come to pass as I predicted it. That isn’t too surprising, since I was one of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s closest friends and confidantes and she trusted me with things I doubt she has told anyone else.
Lauren’s drinking and drug use spiraled out of control…starting the very night she got back to Emmanuel College. The college’s dry campus policy is a joke. The RAs regularly play beer pong with under-aged students. Beer and marijuana are pretty much available and prevalent on the campus, where students regularly post about the dorms reeking of pot.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s grades plummeted and the smart, studious, beautiful, and proud woman I love has put the merit-based scholarship she needs to attend Emmanuel College, the college she was so proud of getting into, at serious risk.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley did not make Dean’s List her sophomore year, despite taking only four classes a semester compared to the five courses she was taking each semester of her freshman year, where she had a 3.634 GPA and made Dean’s List quite easily. I doubt her failure to make Dean’s List her sophomore year is because her classes were so much harder, despite the 20% reduction in classes taken. I think the poor performance had much more to do with Lauren Elizabeth Kelley spending much of her fall semester in a drug-and-alcohol fueled haze that made her wonder where the semester had gone when she was finally getting into the swing of school, sometime during finals week a year ago. Her spring semester went a bit better, but she was still getting high and/or drunk three or four times a week by her own admission, rather than the five-to-seven times a week she was doing fall semester.
Lauren was in a car crash in early January 2012 where it is likely that she was drunk and/or high at the time of the collision by her own admission. Her car was being repaired and she was driving a rental car, something she could not do unless her insurance company rented the car for her. It is likely that the accident happened late at night and that there were no witnesses and no one else was involved, based on the fact that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley wasn’t arrested, which likely would have happened if there was any witnesses or other people involved. It is likely that the single-car collision did mainly cosmetic damage to her car, between $600 and $1400 worth, based on her deductible of $500 and car’s actual cash value of $1500. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley probably just drove home and perjured herself on the accident report.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is friends with people who use the screen names PrincessP0thead and CocianeDreams. Her friends post about going to Hempfest, and getting high and drunk with Lauren Elizabeth Kelley. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has posted about drinking champagne for 24 hours straight. Another of her friends, one of Jarrod’s wolfpack, posted about a friend of his getting convicted and sent to prison.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley started referring to herself as a “bitch”. This is something that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would have attacked a person for doing to her prior to her becoming a drug-addicted alcoholic. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley also started to listen to highly misogynistic gangsta rap and hip-hop music that can not be played on the radio because it would violate the FCC regulations on obscenity. She went from listening to Elton John, the Zac Brown Band, Rascal Flats, and such to the repulsive music that Jarrod and his friends listened to.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley and her friend Michelle Surette went to a sports bar in Boston to watch an AFC playoff game last January and Lauren Elizabeth Kelley posted the next day that she wasn’t responsible for anything that happened in the previous 12 hours. Since neither she nor her friend Michelle had an apartment in Boston and her dormitory was closed, it is pretty easy to see that she had spent the night with some random stranger that she had picked up at the sports bar—likely having slept with him by her disclaimer of responsibility.
There are too many other examples of her addictions and the stupid and reckless behavior that goes along with them for me to mention. These are not things I am guessing about or making up—but things Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has written herself—things she admitted were true and written only by her.
From what I can see, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is still the drug addicted alcoholic that I confronted back on June 29, 2011. She is so much less than the beautiful, strong, amazing, smart and capable woman I asked to marry me. Since it is pretty clear to me, after trying to help the woman I love for seventeen months, that nothing more than the wretched, pathetic, dishonest, weak and cowardly drug-addicted alcoholic is left of my beloved, feisty and stubborn Irish rose, I have decided to move on as Lauren Elizabeth Kelley , the woman who loves me, would want me to do. I know that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would want me to find someone who makes me happy, loves me and can appreciate what I offer her—something the drug-addicted alcoholic can no longer do.
I will abide a short while longer because Christmas is a time of miracles and I believe in the strong, capable, smart and stubborn woman I asked to marry me and hope that she still survives and will read this post and show me a clear and obvious sign that she is still there and that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley still wants the future with Asians with freckles that she and I had talked about for a week in June 2011. If I have not seen any sign of my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley by year’s end, I will move on as I know she would want for the man she loves.
I do not want to do this, but life goes on, even as her addictions seem to deepen their hold on her. I fear that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley will not realize the cost of her addictions or how dangerous they are to her, her health, her mind, her body or her future until she hits rock bottom. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley will likely end up in jail, the hospital like her brother did, flunking out of Emmanuel College, living on the street, or dead before she hits rock bottom and realizes how serious her problems with drugs and alcohol are. This may never happen—as is the case with her father.
But, I doubt I will be here to see that happen. I have fought for my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley for seventeen months, to no avail and with no sign that anything of the woman I love even exists any more.
In so many ways, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s addictions are worse than death because there is no closure—there is no surety that the woman I love is truly dead and gone as there was with Gee’s cancer or my brother’s hideous death at the hands of a drunk driver. There is a chance that I am abandoning the woman I love and have pledged my heart to—that the incredible woman I have watched grow from a bratty, if adorable daughter of two of my closest friends—family in all but blood—might still survive buried under her addictions.
But, Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s addictions and the horrific things they have made her say and do have cost me enough. I have paid the price for trying be loyal and steadfast to the beautiful young woman I still want to marry financially, socially, spiritually, physically and mentally. I can not take the abuse of her addictions much longer and know that I deserve so much better.
I thought that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley really understood how much I loved her—that I have loved her all of her life and that over the past twenty years that love has grown and changed and that I want to spend the rest of my life with her—even if it means walking beside her on her long road to recovery the rest of my days.
I know Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, at least the part of her that isn’t the drug-addicted alcoholic, loves me. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is far too honest a woman to tell me she loves me or say “Sarangheyo” dozens of times over the course of the week we were discussing having children, getting married and starting a life together to have said it if she were not sure of it in her heart.
I doubt that the rift between us is caused by anything other than her addictions, given how it started the moment I confronted Lauren Elizabeth Kelley about her drinking.
I doubt that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would have bothered to lie about me or push me away if she didn’t still love me and care about me.
I doubt that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would have admitted she was still reading everything I have written here on my blog, on Facebook and on Twitter last February unless she still cared what I thought and still loved me.
I doubt Lauren Elizabeth Kelley would have followed the advice I have tried to give her over the past seventeen months if she didn’t know I have always been there for her and always done my best to support her in all her dreams and give her the best advice I could.
I have loved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley all of her life. I have cared for Lauren Elizabeth Kelley all of her life.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley and I have been friends and close confidantes for years—trusting each other implicitly with all of our fears, goals, dreams and wishes.
I think Bridget, Lauren’s sister, is correct when she said that no one would ever love or care for Lauren Elizabeth Kelley as I do.
I never stopped loving Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, caring about Lauren Elizabeth Kelley or being her friend. Her addictions made her throw away twenty years of love, caring, devotion, friendship, loyalty and trust.
I pray Lauren Elizabeth Kelley can forgive herself for that if she ever recovers to the point she realizes what her addictions have truly cost her. I hope that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley will mourn and grieve for the lost future that her addictions have cost her—the one with Asians with freckles that our beautiful children would have been.
If the drug-addicted alcoholic is all that is left of my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, then I will be moving on because staying any longer will destroy me. Lauren Elizabeth Kelley has become a deceitful, stupid, callous, selfish and ugly thing that my beautiful Irish lass would despise and loathe were she healthy. Seeing the pathetic wreckage of the woman I have loved more than anyone else I have ever known is too painful and too toxic for me. It reminds me that I have failed the beautiful, sexy, smart, and beloved Irish woman with the red hair and the freckles that I wished to count and kiss.
I will wish my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley well—long life, happiness, success, peace, serenity and most of all, love because I love her and have always only wanted the best for her—even if it did not include me. I can do this because I do not hold what her addictions have caused her to say and do against her and forgive her for the past seventeen months of pain, hurt, lies and horror.
I pray that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley finds the peace and serenity it will take for her to learn to love herself, trust herself and believe in herself once again. I hope that she can trust her heart enough to see what an amazing and incredible woman God has always meant for my beloved to be—that she can see her true worth.
It is likely that if and when Lauren Elizabeth Kelley finally hits rock bottom and reaches out for help, I will not be here any longer. Even as much as I love her—I can not stay and still be the person who loves Lauren Elizabeth Kelley—be the person Lauren Elizabeth Kelley loves. The wretched drunken drug-addict has hurt me so deeply and wounded me—making me far less than I should be. The healing balm of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s love for me no longer exists and no longer heals the scars that her actions and the past have left.
If Lauren Elizabeth Kelley ever finds the strength, courage and will to fight her addictions and make the amends she needs to do to clean up the devastation her addictions have caused, I hope she will seek me out. I will always love Lauren Elizabeth Kelley and if, at that time, she is clean and sober and makes her amends, I would love to have her back in my life.
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley will always hold the biggest piece of my heart because she is the person I have loved longest of all and deepest of all. It was my honor and privilege to watch her grow from the adorable red-headed baby daughter of two of my closest and most loved friends in to a woman so amazing I asked her to share the rest of my life and marry me, be the mother of our children and to keep me company for the rest of my life.
I keep hoping against all odds that the amazing woman I love will finally realize what her addictions are costing her and face her fears before she loses the man she loves and the future we talked about. If Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is still reading this… you have one month left. I hope Lauren Elizabeth Kelley is smart enough and strong enough to fight her addictions and come home to me. I doubt this will happen.
God Bless you Lauren Elizabeth.
May God watch over you and protect you from all harm—even that you cause yourself.
I hope God gives you the strength to fight your addictions and the wisdom to see the truth about what the alcohol and drugs are doing to you.
I pray that God grants you the serenity and peace you will need to love yourself once again and to forgive yourself for the things your addictions have made you do.
I ask that God helps you find your way back to being the amazing, beautiful, intelligent, feisty, stubborn, strong, and devout woman He wants you to be.
Finally, may He grant you the ability to see yourself as I do and let you remember who we are to each other; let you remember the years of friendship, love and devotion we once shared; and give you the strength to make amends so we can start the future together we talked about last June.
All this in Jesus’s name I pray.
Amen.