Lauren Elizabeth Kelley—
One of your friends tweeted this to you:
My homie caught a bad rap on some bs, least I could do is write him frequently, put some $ in his box & send him good books
It sounds like someone just got arrested and thrown in jail? I know that Eliud, who sent this tweet to you, is one of Jarrod’s wolfpack. I suspect that Jarrod is a drug dealer or at least a very heavy marijuana user based on his own tweets and the fact that he was likely supplying you with the drugs and alcohol your addictions required while you were with him last year.
Doesn’t it say something that you’re friends with someone that tweets about his friend getting arrested?
Doesn’t it matter that you are friends with a Twitter user named PrincessP0thead and another that wanted to use the name CocianeDreams?
If you were still the honest and good woman I love—you would realize that you have a serious problem with alcohol and drugs. That much is clear from your own words and actions from the past seventeen months.
Somewhere, I believe the honest, good, smart, stubborn, proud and beautiful woman I love still exists. I think that is why you wanted to disavow your actions back when you and Michelle went into Boston to watch the AFC championship games last January. I think that is why you tweeted that you weren’t responsible for anything that happened in the previous twelve hours.
I’m pretty sure that you spent the night in Boston based on your own words, yet neither you nor Michelle had an apartment there, so I am guessing that you stayed with some random guy you picked up at the sports bar you were at. I know the devout and moral woman I love wouldn’t sleep around like that—and she would be ashamed of behaving the way you have been.
I have to really wonder if you are proud of what your addictions have turned you into—a weak, immoral, stupid, drug-addicted, alcoholic, lying coward that would debase herself repeatedly because of her addictions.
I have to ask if you are proud of how well you did in your classes at Emmanuel College these past two semesters? You used to be a Dean’s List student… but now, taking fewer classes, you aren’t.
I really have to wonder why you can’t see what your addictions have done to you. Look at your “friends”. Look at how you have been doing in school. Look at how you have treated me—the man you say you love and wanted to start a family with—someone who has been there for you all of your life. But, somehow, you just can’t see any of it.
Have your addictions really made the bright, smart, studious woman I love that stupid?
Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, please show me that you still care about me and what I think. Show me that you still exist and that you are still there. Fight your addictions and come back to me.
I love you and want to be here for you as I’ve promised you, but I just don’t know if you exist any more. I know that you—Lauren Elizabeth Kelley—the woman that I love would want me to move on if she were gone. I am beginning to think you—my beautiful Irish rose—have succumbed to your addictions and are as lost to me as if you had died.
Please, give me a sign that you are still there—that you still love me and care about me. If you are still there Lauren Elizabeth Kelley, there is nothing that would stop me from being here for you. If you are gone—there is nothing for me here.
God Bless you Lauren Elizabeth.
May God watch over you and protect you from all harm—even that you cause yourself.
I hope God gives you the strength to fight your addictions and the wisdom to see the truth about what the alcohol and drugs are doing to you.
I pray that God grants you the serenity and peace you will need to love yourself once again and to forgive yourself for the things your addictions have made you do.
I ask that God helps you find your way back to being the amazing, beautiful, intelligent, feisty, stubborn, strong, and devout woman He wants you to be.
Finally, may He grant you the ability to see yourself as I do and let you remember who we are to each other; let you remember the years of friendship, love and devotion we once shared; and give you the strength to make amends so we can start the future together we talked about last June.
All this in Jesus’s name I pray.
Amen.