Fearing the Truth

Posted on Wednesday 24 October 2012

Today, I got a comment on a photo I posted on one of the social media websites. It was a response to a photo of Lauren Elizabeth Kelley where I had basically told the viewers that the photo was taken before Lauren Elizabeth Kelley fell to her addictions. The photo was taken in 2008 and long before Lauren Elizabeth Kelley stopped believing in herself, loving herself or trusting herself. She still knew she was strong, beautiful, smart and was confident in herself.

The comment was from Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s brother, Johnny Walker Kelley Jr.—who is likely a drug addict and alcoholic in denial himself. He said:

“Yo dude this has to stop this is wicked messed up”

Well, I agree, I wish it could stop. But I won’t stop until Lauren Elizabeth Kelley gets the help she needs for herself and is on her way to being clean, sober and healthy once again.

Last summer, when I was trying to get Lauren Elizabeth Kelley the help she needed, I asked her brother, Johnny Jr., for help. Johnny said he wasn’t going to get involved. He said it was her decision and he wasn’t willing to upset his father or his sister because it wasn’t his business. I e-mailed him the documents that his mother Sue had asked me to put together regarding Lauren Elizabeth Kelley’s addictions and changes in her behavior.

I said to Johnny:

“Read the documentation I put together for your mother. If you do and you agree with what I’ve said, then help me help your sister Lauren. If you read it and don’t agree, I won’t ever bother you about it again.”

Well, Johnny wouldn’t read it…he said he couldn’t be bothered. He wouldn’t help his beautiful sister. He then turned his back on me—someone who had been his friend all of his life—someone who he considered family, and considered him family. His betrayal was very painful, especially considering that I was the person who had saved him from one of the stupidest mistakes of his life.

Unfortunately, I believe that if Johnny Jr. and Sue had worked with me, that we could have gotten Lauren Elizabeth Kelley the help she needed and she wouldn’t have had to gone through the last seventeen months as she has. If she had gotten help last summer, before she went back to school, she would probably have stayed on Dean’s List and wouldn’t be on the verge of losing her scholarship at the moment.

Johnny Walker Kelley Jr. is as big a coward as his father. He has no honor and no loyalty. He has proven himself to be a pretty worthless human being that only cares for himself. The way he treated his girlfriend Tara speaks volumes about the kind of person Johnny Walker Kelley Jr. is.

I think Johnny Walker Kelley Jr. fears the truth for the same reasons his father does—the truth is ugly—the truth is Johnny Jr. is a drug-addict and an alcoholic in denial. I am pretty certain that his chronic depression was the underlying cause of his drinking and drug use, and that if he ever lets his depression go unchecked again, he will be drinking and using drugs again.

I know this because I was the person his mother Sue trusted to talk to Johnny Jr. when he flunked out of Bentley College three years ago. He had nearly gotten arrested several times and finally ended up in the hospital. His mother and I got him into treatment and his problems with drugs and alcohol suddenly stopped, which I doubt is a coincidence. I believe that Johnny was very lucky—his hospitalization prevented him from getting arrested, seriously injured or killed and also got him the help he needed.

His beautiful sister, my beloved Lauren Elizabeth Kelley hasn’t been that lucky. I fear she will have to end up in jail, the hospital or worse before she realizes she has a problem with drugs and alcohol. Until Lauren Elizabeth Kelley hits rock bottom, I doubt she will realize how much of a problem she has. Her brother Johnny Jr. was one of the few people she might listen to, since she knows he has had problems with drugs and alcohol, but he doesn’t have the courage or backbone to do it. Johnny Jr. is a coward and he fears the truth.

I hope that Lauren Elizabeth Kelley realizes her addictions are a problem before she is seriously injured or killed, before she ruins her health, her mind, her spirit and her future, and before she loses her scholarship and has to drop out of Emmanuel College.

I doubt that will happen, but I keep writing this blog to remind Lauren Elizabeth Kelley of what an amazing and beautiful woman she is—why I love her so much that I asked her to marry me. I want her to know that I still believe in her, trust her, have faith in her, and love her—even in spite of all the horrible things her addictions have made her say and do.

God Bless you Lauren Elizabeth.

May God watch over you and protect you from all harm—even that you cause yourself.

I hope God gives you the strength to fight your addictions and the wisdom to see the truth about what the alcohol and drugs are doing to you.

I pray that God grants you the serenity and peace you will need to love yourself once again and to forgive yourself for the things your addictions have made you do.

I ask that God helps you find your way back to being the amazing, beautiful, intelligent, feisty, stubborn, strong, and devout woman He wants you to be.

Finally, may He grant you the ability to see yourself as I do and let you remember who we are to each other; let you remember the years of friendship, love and devotion we once shared; and give you the strength to make amends so we can start the future together we talked about last June.

All this in Jesus’s name I pray.


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