There’s an interesting blog on parenting called Momastery. It was started by Glennon Melton. I found it through a former colleague of mine who posted a link to it on Facebook. I only am writing about it because of Glennon’s own past. She was a bulimic, alcoholic and drug-addict before she managed to fight her illnesses and work her way back to health.
Glennon shows that there is life after alcoholism and drug-addiction. I hope it doesn’t take my Ellie as long to find this out. I hope that Ellie doesn’t have to wake up pregnant, drunk and alone as Glennon did before she realizes she has a problem. Glennon’s description of herself is a pretty good description of the woman I love, at least was when she was healthy. Glennon wrote:
I’m usually an honest person. I am creative and kind. I’m brave and loyal and trustworthy. I’m smart. Wicked smart, sometimes. I’m quite funny. I make big mistakes and I say I’m sorry and then quickly forgive myself. I love to learn. I soak up books and people like the sun. I forgive easily. I’m a great listener. I stand in reverent awe of other people, with all their strength, pain, loss and triumphs….
That describes the woman I love and adore pretty well.
I hope Ellie is still listening. I hope she can show me that she is still there—that she is still the woman who loves me—and I will help her if she asks me to. I really don’t know if she is there anymore. All I have seen are the lies and the horrible things she has done to herself because of her addictions these last 11 months. I pray that she is there—that she is still fighting for herself and for the future we had talked about last June.
I love Ellie and want to spend our future together as we had talked about.
May God watch over my beloved Ellie. God bless her and protect her, even from herself. May God grant her the strength, courage, and will to fight her illness and return to being her true self. May God grant her the wisdom to see the truth—both about her illness and about us.