Archive for February, 2012

Message In A Bottle

This weekend, I was thinking of Gee and Ellie, the two women I love most…and decided to watch a movie that reminds me of them both for a lot of reasons. The movie, Message In A Bottle, is one that Gee and I saw in a movie theater when it still playing. The second time […]

Common Denominators

Someone recently asked me if I love Ellie because she reminds me of Gee. That was a question I hadn’t heard before. The answer is no. While there are some things about Ellie that do remind me of Gee, I would say that they are more the common denominators of all the women I love. […]

Ash Wednesday

Today is Ash Wednesday. It is the first day of Lent. For Lent I have given up cookies. This is this is the first time I have given anything up for Lent. I was not raised in a religion that required giving up anything for Lent. In fact, the religious make up of my family […]

I miss you

and I have to wonder if you miss me. I have loved you in some form for all of your life, and I will always love you. I hope you are getting help and getting better. God bless you and watch over you.

What I Wish…

Ellie— and I hope you’ve gotten help for your addictions and are getting better. I hope you’re studying hard and getting good grades, so you don’t lose your scholarship. If you want my help, all you need to do is make your amends and ask me. I am pretty sure you know how much I […]

Happy Valentine’s Day

Wishing all my blog readers a Happy Valentine’s Day. More importantly, I want to remember the beautiful woman I married on what would have been her birthday. To me, today will always be first and foremost Gee’s birthday, and then Valentine’s Day. Remembering Gee’s birthday was always easy—since Madison Avenue makes sure I have six […]

A Rose Named Ellie

“You are beautiful, but you are empty. One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you—the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I […]

The Two Women I Love Most…

As Valentine’s Day approaches, two women are on my mind. They are the two women I love most of all, and both are in my thoughts every day. One was born on Valentine’s Day and I was lucky enough to marry her. She passed away over a decade ago and I miss her every day. […]

Fiddler’s Green Calling

Damn… two good ones sailed off for Fiddler’s Green. My friends Paul and John, both passed away yesterday. I knew the two of them through the sailing forums. Even though Paul switched to powerboats after he got an LVAD implanted, he was always a sailor at heart. I guess his heart finally gave out on […]


I miss Ellie…and this pretty much says it all… Tomorrow, by Chris Young Tomorrow I’m gonna leave here. I’m gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would. And tomorrow, I’m gonna listen. to that voice of reason inside my head telling me that we’re no good. [Chorus] But tonight […]

What If…

There are times when you make decisions and the results make you ask “What if?” Those “What Ifs?” can drive you crazy. One such decision for me happened nearly 25 years ago, when my twin left on a drive back to San Diego, headed back to school. This is the first time I am writing […]

Winter Projects 2012

This week I’ll be starting the winter projects on s/v Pretty Gee. The two big projects are the new cabin sole lockers on the starboard side of the cabin and the new cabin overhead. Cabin Sole Locker The centerboard trunk on s/v Pretty Gee is offset slightly to the port side. As designed by the […]

Honoring Commitments

Two symbols of commitment—the wedding band that Gee gave me and the turkshead bracelet I made for Ellie. I wear them both to honor the memories of these two amazing women and to show the life-long commitment I made to each of them. Last summer, before I realized the extent of Ellie’s addictions, I promised […]