The Serenity Prayer or Neibhur’s Prayer starts with an almost universally recongized: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. My friend Grant wrote that being a twin isn’t always easy, but he wouldn’t trade it [...]
“Here is my secret. It’s quite simple: One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes…It is the time you spent on your rose that makes your rose so important…People have forgotten this truth. But you mustn’t forget it. You become responsible forever for what you have tamed. You’re responsible [...]
I will show you fear in a handful of dust —The Waste Land, T.S. Eliot I don’t think that most people actually fear death, I think we fear that no one will notice our absence—that we will disappear without a trace. Ellie need never fear this, because she will always be missed by me. Though [...]
Update: Ellie has locked her social media accounts, so that confirms it. The woman I love is truly gone. If any part of her were still there fighting, she would have left that line of communication open, but it seems that she has finally succumbed to her addictions as I suspected. Goodbye my beloved, I [...]
Etta James, probably best known for her song At Last, just passed away. It’s sad to hear for me because Etta and At Last were what Gee and I picked for our wedding 12 years ago. We didn’t even have to discuss it…it was the first choice for both of us. Even today, over a [...]
Ellie— I don’t even know if you still read my blog. Given that you haven’t said anything or done anything about what I’ve tried to tell you, I am guessing that you aren’t reading my blog any more or don’t care what I say anymore. If, by chance, you are still reading this blog and [...]
Ellie— I don’t even know if you still read my blog. Given that you haven’t said anything or done anything about what I’ve tried to tell you, I am guessing that you aren’t reading my blog any more or don’t care what I say anymore. If, by chance, you are still reading this blog and [...]
Today, I had cheese stuffed tortellini for the first time in over a decade. It is strange, but I didn’t realize that I hadn’t bought or made this type of pasta in over ten years, even though it was always one of my favorites. It was also a dish that I cooked a lot for [...]
If it isn’t obvious to you how much I love you, you’re really quite an idiot. If it isn’t obvious that I am here for you and only want to help you get better—help you get back to being who you really are—you’re not paying any attention. Let me make it clear—I love you, my [...]
The words of this song almost perfectly express my feelings at losing Ellie to her illness. I miss her. I grieve for her. I hope where ever she goes, that she someday remember how much I love her. I always have loved her, and always will. There are no goodbyes between us, for I know [...]
I will always be here for Ellie, the woman that loves me. I will always love the amazing, intelligent, beautiful, smart, funny, stubborn, freckled, Irish woman with the red hair and feisty temper, as I have her whole life. I will always care for the woman that learned to say “sarangheyo”, so she could tell [...]