Happy New Year’s Eve to all my friends and family. This is the last day of the year and I, for one, am very happy to see 2011 end. I hope the New Year brings all of you success, health and happiness. I hope that 2012 will be a better year for many of us. [...]
There are reasons each of us is born. We have to find those reasons. After Gee died I wondered why I was still here. I knew who I was and what I was supposed to be doing when Gee was alive. I was her husband and my place was beside her. After she died, I [...]
Just recently, Ellie posted: Never done so much accounting in my life… next semester is going to be a challenge..stats econ accounting macro… I don’t think she even realizes how difficult those classes are going to be for her. Given how much trouble she was having this semester with classes that are relatively far simpler [...]
A little over ten-and-a-half years ago, Gee came home for the last time. It was Thursday, June 7th, 2001. She had been released from the hospital, where she had been since May 28th, Memorial Day, for home hospice care. As I carried her into the house, what she said to me was bittersweet. She said, [...]
I recently saw an ad on TV for a company that says they can protect you from “identity theft”. Identity, by definition, can not be stolen. Identity can be defined as: the condition of being oneself or itself, and not another. While someone can pretend to be you…they can not actually be you. Granted, if [...]
Holidays, present a difficult situation for many recovering alcoholics, since the parties of the season often involve alcoholic beverages, and one may not want it known that they are a recovering alcoholic. The Crying out Now blog provides a pretty good list of tips for those trying to maintain their sobriety during this time of [...]
Dear Santa, I’ve been a very good boy this year. I have a very simple request for Christmas–can I just have Ellie please? I know she’s not perfect, but I do love her warts and all. I think she’s beautiful, smart and funny. I know she’s the one I was told to look for 10 [...]
I am wishing all of my friends and family a Merry Christmas and hope the New Year brings them all success, health and happiness. I also have some simple wishes and hopes for this Christmas season. First, I wish that Ellie, the beautiful, smart, funny, tough, feisty, and stubborn woman I love realizes she has [...]
It is strange what you can find on Google. I found this article by doing a search on a whim for “recovery”, “love”, “addiction” and “Ellie”. I wish Ellie would read this article. While I don’t believe her father has ever beaten her mother, he is very emotionally abusive towards Ellie’s mother. I guess that [...]
One reason I stay is that when I am with Ellie, time flows slowly past—dim and diffuse as the pre-dawn light through early morning fog over the harbor—warmth and her love pour into me—a balm that heals the wounds I have borne for many years. When I am with her I realize how lonely and [...]
One thing my friend Carrie has pointed out is that she sees how one-sided my relationship with Ellie appears to be. However, everything is not as it seems. Much of what Carrie has read about Ellie is what her addiction to drugs and alcohol has made her do. They were written after Ellie fell ill, [...]
When I first heard One More Day, I was driving Gee’s little Saturn, and nearly drove off the road because of the tears that made seeing the road almost impossible. It sums up what I felt after she died better than any words I could express myself. This is one of my favorite songs…I believe [...]